My Story.

Depression is a subject many people tend to avoid. Maybe because of the awkwardness or maybe because of bad memories. For the lucky ones who are privileged enough to have never suffered from this illness, here is the basic definition; depression is the persistent feeling of sadness.
Boo Hoo, some may say, you're sad. So what. The world hasn't stopped spinning because you feel a particular emotion. Well people.. Let me tell you MY definition of depression; it's not just feeling 'sad', its the feeling of being hopeless, guilty, tired, anxious and it's like you're stuck in a big black hole and no matter how hard you try to get out there just doesn't seem to be a way. Maybe not for you, but for us, it DOES feel like the world has stopped spinning.  It's one big ball of emotion we don't WANT to feel but we do because we have no choice, it's not something can control. It's only something we can hide. Hide from everyone.

 As a 16 year old who has been battling with depression on and off since the ripe age of 13, I know what its like to be in the position of truly believing you have no One, that no one cares and nothing matters anymore. I'm fine now, after a long period of self pity and exhaustion... I've realised  that No matter how bad we have it, there is ALWAYS someone who has it worser than us. Always.
My own Mother, my beautiful, strong hearted mother, who was widowed at the tender age of 18. Merely a child herself she was left to fend for daughter and unborn child. We can never understand the pain and heartache anyone goes through. It's true what they say, you have to walk a mile in somebody's shoes to know how they feel and to understand what they are going through. Then there are those people who take everything for granted, complaining their way through life, people who are handed the best of things on a plate. These are the ones who will never understand what it's like to struggle.

The purpose of this post isn't for sympathy. It's to make you understand that everyone is dealing with their own devils. At the end of the day we are only humans. We all have our own lives, our own relationships and problems and illnesses. These are not what define us, what defines us is how we react to these. What defines us is our way of dealing with everything life throws at us.

Make the most of what you have before it makes the most of you.
KismatIsDestiny x